Here is the story of  how my spiritual and Healing Journey started, 
and how I got out of depression and food disorder.

From a very young age, I was tormented by death and always wondering what is the point of this life, completely overwhelmed thinking of the infinity and immensity of the universe.
I’d lay awake at night, not being able to sleep, my mind spinning with metaphysical questions and fears, while the loss of loved ones deepened my anxiety.

By my early 20’s I felt utterly blocked and lost, slipping unconsciously into depression. I missed appointments, making excuses to hide it, battled insomnia and sleep paralysis, and would ate compulsively for hours—late recognizing these as hyperphagia and bulimia.

I knew I was not ok, and tried to disciplined myself but I wasn’t able to get out of the loop.
Yes, that’s the thing about depression: you can know all the solution to get better, yet you are powerless to act, and no, being disciplined is not the solution because you just can’t find this motivation within you. 

I loved life so much I would always be on my happiest mood with people, but once alone, I would most of the time fell into the dark again. Two good days good for four bad days.

So, how did I get better?

TURNING POINT: understanding our body

This day a friend of mine brought me to a Kinesiologist was the beginning of a change. I realized:

• Our body is not just a body.
  In order to heal we need to look at our ourselves as an energetic system, where our emotions and thoughts interact with the body.
• Positive affirmations alone don’t heal deep wounds. People often say (and even so called ‘life coach’) that it is all about ‘changing your mindset’. Well, it doesn’t work like that. Repeating yourself everyday “I have a good life” doesn’t make it any better if you are at the bottom.
• We are energetic system
  Understand that: if you have chronic guts issue, it’s not just because of what you eat. You might need to take a look at the fear and anxiety you cumulate in your daily life and store in your nervous system and the intestines, that fuel guts inflammation— which then loops back to affect your emotions and thoughts. What you eat is important, but regulating your nervous system and facilitating your energy flow is just as important. 

Healing requires addressing both body and energy.

MY SPIRITUAL AWAKENING

Traveling through South America ended up being such a spiritual journey. I didn’t search for it but I guess I asked for it so intensely that answers came to me. I opened myself to the divine, talked to people from all religion and cultures with this thirst of understanding Life.

Passing by Hare Krishna’s Temples, I was initiated to Yoga and to the Vedic Philosophy, which made me aware that we emanate from Oneness, and that we are not our body, but a soul using a body as vessel on this planet.

Everything comes from one source, the original energy or Spirit. The lecture of “The Universe Explained to my Grandchildren” by Hubert Reeves brought me to the same conclusion, realizing that humans are stardust, and that any molecule on this planet or constituting our body also exists in the depth of the universe, making everything deeply interconnected.

And I started connecting with God and my spirit.

In Yoga Nidra sessions and Ayahuasca ceremony I had this deep realization, that we come from Love, Love is the Only Truth, and Everything is Connected. It seems simple, it is not describable, it came as a profound feeling.

Yoga gave me peace, and a guidance in life.
It is a philosophy of acceptance, of devotion, to break away from our ego and material needs. Practicing Yoga, not only I could feel the physical benefits on my body, stronger, more energized, less painful, also I started to feel more aligned and connected.

Along those years I learned how to navigate my emotions with awareness and be in control of my life, instead of my emotions preventing me from being truly present. I learned the power of the Mind, and how to heal by accessing our energetic layer. 

There are simple methods that are accessible to anyone. I combined nervous system regulation, breath awareness, meditation, yoga and fascial maneuvers, tapping, and energetic alignment to overcome my depression, get rid of my food disorders and achieve well-being on a daily basis. There is no magic here, it’s about learning how to be more aware of ourselves and how we function.

Healing is a learning process, to connect to your soul. With ups and downs, no judgement, accepting to hold pain and grow, deep diving into the darkest and brightest. Are you ready to join me on this journey?